Well, we made it back from our trip to CT!!!!! It was SSSOOOOO much fun seeing the family and baby Kady's baptism was so beautiful. But being home is nice. However, reality sets in quick.....I move in 15 days and take my state boards in less than a week. STRESSED!!!!! To say the least but also very excited!!! I tell ya....life is crazy!! You just never know what is coming at you next. I find myself in a very confusing spot because I am pulled in so many directions.
I am in a fairly reflective mood today and in light of my many disagreements with Jose lately I am left in udder just blahhhhh in my head. I don't know if that makes sense but that is what I think. I know there are so many things that I don't do that I should....not just for him but because frankly sometimes I annoy myself with them. And the best laid plans.......well just don't seem to work....
For instance there are several factors about myself that I should be more diligent on, I think and think on ways to do it....come up with a plan and then .....nothing I am still here with the same old habits.....But what I am realizing is....that I am a highly emotional being what I do and don't do plays in to my mood and self confidence and ultimately my relationship. The thing is it drives me nuts...when I am depressed or distraught in my relationship or upset about my weight, which I must say is creeping up there lately...I am a zombie, impatient, TV watching, cookie eating, doing absolutely nothing zombie. Witch in turn generally makes the whole situation worse. But when things are good, which has been far and few between, then I am good. IT is weird and annoying so knowing this I should be able to fix it right....well that is always my plan but then I get in a funk and nothing changes.....What a BOOB!!!
But enough of that, maybe I am just nuts and need a shrink!!! BUT I AM OFF TO STUDY!!!! if I don't pass this test you can all visit me and VA beach psych because I think I will be certifiably nuts!!!
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